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Message 363:

Date:     Thu Dec 21 11:12:23 2000 CST
From:     Zalbag (#2864)
To:       *plots (#1506)
Subject:  Pray 

Zalbag knelt below the sword St. Ajora pulled from the black flames of Hell and started to pray.
 "St. Ajora, life is so hard these days. I try to do what your teachings say yet they are hard to
 follow with a person who has led a life like I have. I try to do good, hunt down the heretics and
 sinners like the church tells me. I try to help the King run the land. But most of all, I try to
 be a man worthy of Sarah's love. I dont think she loves me anymore......I killed our
 son........And she never tells me she loves me.....Perhaps no one should love me.....Im
 nothing......I will never be anything.....Your teachings say 'You must love thy self before you
 love someone else.' Perhaps I dont love Sarah as much as I thought if I dont love myself......I
 feel I should die.....St. Ajora if only you could guide me to the right choice.....Im a
 sheep.....Im not worthy to have the name Kain.....Kains are leaders......Men who take other lands
 and rule them under a just hand......Mabey.....Just mabey.....There is hope for me......" He stood
 after saying his prayer aloud and turned around to see Vormav standing there looking at him.
 "Vormav, I didnt know you were there.". Vormav nodded slowly "I see you dont think too highly of
 yourself. Just remember the teachings the High Priest taught you and things will be better. I
 assure you." Zalbag rushed past Vormav and went to his chambers and locked the door to be alone
 with his thoughts.